is the water inside?

All the water in all the oceans cannot sink a ship unless it gets inside. – Eugene H. Petersen


Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. – Proverbs 4:23.



wow. the story of God.

The greatest story ever. Retold by my brother and friend, Matt Papa. I hope you will take the time to watch it. This story involves you, whether you like it or not.

The Story of God

To God be the glory. Forever and ever. Amen.

give thanks – day 26

Thankful for joy and laughter. The kind of laughter that makes you spit out your drink, cry, and beg it to stop. The kind of laughter that has your sides splitting at the seams. The contagious kind. The kind that comes when you are so tired that EVERYTHING is funny. So funny. More funny than it should be.

This was last night. Put together two roommates, no sleep, end of the semester school work, and just awkward life stories and you get sheer hilarity.

It was so good. Just to laugh. To laugh until the point of exhaustion. I need more of that in my life.

give thanks – day 23 & 24

Procrastination is both a blessing and a curse. I have the ability to be completely oblivious to things that are due while still managing to crank out great quality work. This weekend. Not so much…

I have managed to get myself into quite a hole as the next week approaches. As my semester winds down, the list of assignments due piles up. I spent the entire weekend locked in my apartment in my sweatpants trying to survive.

I feel like someone has tied cinder blocks to my feet and thrown me in the Atlantic. I haven’t been able to come up for air yet (this post is yet another method of procrastination). The only reason I haven’t cleaned my room yet is because this is THAT serious. I know you do it, the only time your room gets cleaned is when you should be studying. I had to skip that step (maybe the magnitude of the situation is now sinking in).

However, in the midst of the craziness I am reminded of how wonderful this opportunity is. I am stressed to the max, but that’s my own fault. I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to pursue my Master’s. Most people don’t get that opportunity. And though I am working full time and doing school full time, I am SO grateful that I won’t have any loans coming out of this endeavor. To be able to start my career (whatever that may be) with no debt holding me back is something to praise the Lord for. I’m thankful that my parents helped me through undergrad and have guided me on how to wisely pursue my Master’s as to avoid debt.

I’m also extremely tahnkful for the opportunity to study under brilliant, godly professors with a wealth of knowledge and experience for me to learn from. Thankful that their teachings don’t stay in the classroom, but they flow over into my life. Thankful that they realize that sometimes 70% is 100% of all I’ve got to give, and they express such understanding. What a blessing! What a treat to have such an incredible school and faculty!

So thankful for Southeastern Baptist Theological Seminary. Thankful for their ministry to me, the community, and the nations. They are Colossians 1:28-29 teachers –

“We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me.”

give thanks – day 7

Today, I am thankful for the sovereignty of the Lord.

It is absolutely amazing how He perfectly orchestrates things to fall into place as soon as our pursuits match his.

For a selfish, head-strong planner like myself, that hasn’t always been often. However, I am excited at how quickly things are happening and thrilled with the direction they’re going.

The Lord has made it very clear that I should extend my time in North Carolina to more actively pursue Biblical counseling. To be quite honest, I didn’t have plans to stay here or to move forward in that direction. But the Lord has spoken so clearly into my life and those around me to confirm this is the right direction for now. What thy means or the future, I have no idea. But He does, so I am resting in that and pressing on.

With this new direction come huge changes: Stephen will start looking for jobs here after December, my work schedule must change to do my counseling internship, there are other classes I have to get permission to take before I can move forward, etc.

But the Lord has clearly shown he is in control! And I think he knows I needed to see that in order to move forward–Oh me of little faith!

But within 2 days, my academic changes were approved, the counseling department and dean are making sure the transition is smooth, they are helping grant special permissions for the courses I need, I received all the information necessary to apply for Summit’s internship program, AND my boss agreed to help me make my work schedule more manageable for the future. WOW!

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.

That is the cry of my heart today.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10 NIV